The Family Disease

 

I'll vomit illusions,
Trick myself that i'm happy,
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born

I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes,
I reach from birth just to die,
I keep the devil inside I grow him in me

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,

Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born

I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.

I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes

Oceana - The Family Disease

How could I look at you all this time but not see you? How could I exchange only fleeting glances with you, when now I just can’t take my eyes off you, I want to look at you endlessly? Drowning in the waves of melancholy, sadness and incredible beauty dissolved in your voice. A voice that can rise you to the top of the world and drown you down in the abyss of pain. To listen and ask a question: is there a limit to the beauty and these feelings that can fit in a person’s heart? And listening to this music, I restrain myself not to cry. But I won't cry. Walking here is endless. And I'll never want to leave this place.

The Jester

 Like a Jester at the ball
Rubbed my shoulders with the kings
And I was draped in gold and velvet
Bathing in applause while I was jumping through the rings
And then the cooks would sound a bell
And all the kings would lick their lips
But I couldn't find a place mat
The dinner table's full and there's no room for me to sit

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
Just say you want me, just say you need me
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
Does anybody need me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?
With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders.
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Lord, I live to entertain
All my pride is in my praise
I hum along with this vibration
And hope to god I make it
If any chord that I could strum
Made me feel less like a man
I'd slam my fingers in the doorway
And shatter all the bones so I could never strum again

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
Just say you want me, just say you need me
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
For me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?
With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Badflower - The Jester

Who would have ever thought that musicians, trying to be so cool, pretentious and audacious, behind such a screaming and tasteless cover hide such soulful music, music, that crawl to the bones, creep into every secret corner of your soul, open the doors to where you have never been and for a so long time not allowing you to get out of these corridors, beyond the countless doors of which there are so many life stories, sad, devastating, rude, dirty, but so insanely poetic... I can't get it out from my head for weeks now and hope I will never be able to.

Friends in the Foyer

I remember singing with you
Our friends in the foyer come straight from the altar
And I recall believing in truth
But it seems like forever since I’ve really believed in anything

So now I just sing it off
These days, I just drink it off
So now I just sing it off, it off, it off

I remember laughing with them
Our friends in the forest, in that house on a mountain
In that cabin, we got real drunk
And on the ride back to Boston, I weeped as I questioned
The men and the women we’d become

But now it’s just a metaphor
God up in the clouds, where is he now?
But now it feels like novocaine
A drink on a warm night, something to soothe the pain

I remember singing with you
Our friends in the foyer, too

 Valleyheart - Friends in The Foyer

 

Lost between back then and forever after.

I guess I should have started with the song "Losing my Religion", but suddenly a melody of this song sounded in my player and I realized how much I want to return home.

This music throws so much feelings right at me, making me so comfort, so blissful and so sad in the same time. Like it whispers: "Life is a beautiful thing, but runs so fast, it goes furher away with every second, remember who you are and don't let go everynhing you chersish, because nothing ever will be the same as it was back then".

This song just takes me somewhere that feels like home... And I hope that this time there is no need for me to leave.