Gold

And what did you say back to me?
Dreaming of Maybach cruising
Maybe talking crazy, but I want it
A hundred thousand ways of choosing
Who the hell is out and who's in trouble?
Maybe I'm too subtle

I'm livin' like a silent movie
Shut your mouth and see straight through me
Findin' that you're hiding in your money (money, m-m-m-money)
I got a million ways of losin'
But nothing in my life worth proving
Chasing, all my time is wasted

Mouth is made of metal, metal, metal
Pocket full of yellow, yellow, pocket full of gold
And I hope you find, I hope you find your dream
And darling never settle, settle, settle
Chasin' down the devil, devil
Chasin' down the gods
And I hope you find, I hope you find your dream

It's the push and the pull
It's the rise and the fall
I don't owe you a single thing
I don't owe you anything
It's the push and the pull
It's the big and the small
I don't owe you a single thing
Not a god damn thing

My mouth is made of metal, metal, metal
Pocket full of yellow, yellow, pocket full of gold
And I hope you find, I hope you find your dream (I don't wanna do anything)
And darling never settle, settle, settle
Chasin' down the devil, devil
Chasin' down the gods
And I hope you find, I hope you find your dream (I don't wanna do anything)

I hope you find your dream

Sir Sly - Gold

This music is a mystery to me. It seems to know something about me that I don't know by myself... Otherwise, why am I so infinitely in love with it? With this quiet voice of sadness and nostalgia, woven from the fragile weightless melodies, as indescribable and elusive as the most intimate feelings and thoughts.

And yes, it sounds so similar to The Neighbourhood, but to admit - that's why I'm here... And I'm unbelievable happy to be here.

Flawless

She planned ahead for a year, he said "Let's play it by ear"
She didn't want him to run, he didn't want her to fear
Nobody said it'd be easy, they knew it was rough
But, tough luck

I fell in love today, there aren't any words that you can say
That could ever get my mind to change
She's enough for me, she's in love with me

You're a doll, you are flawless
But I just can't wait for love to destroy us
I just can't wait for love
The only flaw, you are flawless
But I just can't wait for love to destroy us
I just can't wait for love

So, she put his heart in a bag, he wouldn't ask for it back
He didn't want her to cry, she didn't want to be sad
She said, "You better not leave me"
This shit'll be fucked for days and weeks and months, but

When I add it all up, I can find it
The problem with love is I'm blinded by
It rattles my lungs, but my mind is
Tangled between your little flaws
Your flaws, your flaws, your flaws

You're a doll, you are flawless
But I just can't wait for love to destroy us
I just can't wait for love
The only flaw, you are flawless
But I just can't wait for love to destroy us
I just can't wait for love

Wait for love, I won't wait for love
Wait for love, I won't wait for love
Wait for love

The Neighbourhood - Flawless 

/ I Love You. /

Oh my, I think I've just fell out from my life...
God, what a perfect illusory soundtrack for dreams of such an escapist like me. So let me walk away forever.

 

The Future As History: I Love You Dead

Yeah, I'm drowning in your poison

Venomous love, teeth sharp as razors, I cry

We're so honest when we're choking

When all the oxygen has burned up all of our minds

Here's where it starts

Where it starts out of my skin

I feel the warmth pour out from my crying eyes

Yeah, I love you dead

(I wanna shake the earth)

Come spit up your devotion

Upon a canvas of infinite corpses divine, oh

We're so honest when we're choking

When all the oxygen has poured out of all our minds

Here's where it starts

Where it starts out of my skin

I feel the warmth pour out from my fucking eyes

Yeah, I never wanted anything

Yeah, I never wanted anything

But I know that I love you dead

Yeah I love you dead

Night Verses - THE FUTURE AS_HISTORY: I LOVE YOU DEAD

It's freaking awesome to find something that you've never heard before. Something unique and genuine, especially when it comes to progressive post-rock with passionate vocals, so bright, so wild,  so strange - absolutely outstanding.

This perfect sound of absolute hysteria allures me. And I think that this is my new addiction.

Jenny

A little sleep, a little slumber
A little folding of the hands
Left you weak, left you hungry
When there's supply you still demand
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You're beginning to drag the ones you love down
Will this phase ever end?
A thousand arms to hold you
But you won't reach for any hands

Bring on the pills, roll the dollar bill
Medicating will never heal
Relapse, rehab, repeat
Always thinking about the me, me, me
Self-destruct, spiral down
Until your want becomes your need
Please get up like I know you can
Or forever love the fall

Cause

I don't feel like I'm getting through to you
Let me paint this clear, life is short, my dear
See your mother here, her last painful year
I wish you only knew...
She stuck around for you
She stuck around for you

Maybe you should just fall
Leave the world and lose it all
And if that's what you need
To finally see
I'll be with you through it all

Nothing More - Jenny

 I'm absolutely paralyzed with piercing beauty of this song and heartbreaking story behind it...

This Is the Time (Ballast)

When did we become these sinking stones?
When did we build this broken home?
Holding each other like ransom notes
Dropping our hearts to grip our brother's throats

Anchored in anger, we exile ourselves
Bitter blood builds our prison cell
Darker water now fills our lungs
The depths of our heart have blacked the sun

You can't see because you don't know
You're caught below, beneath your own shadow
Stuck inside, half alive
Do you ever stop to ask yourself why?
Close your mind, identify
Do you feel, do you feel?
Do you call this a life?
All you waited for
Drowning just to keep score

We always start with good intentions
But lose ourselves along the way
This is the time that we let it go
These are the words that will take us home
Singing the song that's inside us all
If we don't open our eyes we're walking blind

Nothing More - This Is the Time (Ballast)
 

God bless the day when I heard this magnificent song...
I could never have imagined that returning home would be so incredible and bright, so sublime.
It feels like I had returned to a majestic ancient temple, and all I have to do is to fall on my knees and pray.
The strongest energy flow, exposed and vivid emotions - it just tear me apart. No, seriously, this song just left me speachless. It seems to me that my heart has turned into a dying star, which is about to explode and spill out with the rain of shattered feelings.
And deep inside I really missed the infinite depth and devastating tragedy of heavy music. After all, more than anything in the world I love when my heart is bleeding to these sounds...

The Hardest Part...

There sit two lovers
One's eyes intently chasing the other's
She doesn't love him anymore
But he'll stick it out 'til the end
This he had sworn

You see love's a funny thing
The way it lingers in the mind
No matter what you do
Or the passing of time

That ember still glows
For those lovers behind
No matter if it's well-remembered
That light still shines

Good times take precedent
Over every incident
No matter how poorly spent

So we put on these ridiculous fronts
Like we were just fooling around
Our love was only childish fun

Yet we know different
That it meant something to us
And that piece still lingers
In each one that we've loved

So we pick up the pieces
Try and make a half a whole
But in the back of our minds
There's quite a different story to be told

That love has kissed our lips
That love has touched our eyes
And no matter how sincere
Love has changed our lives

That's why love's a funny thing

And even if all love has flown
We'll have a few scars to proudly show
'Cause at the end of our lives
We can say, "At least we tried."

Lying awake in bed
Feeling the spot on my chest
Where you used to, where you used to rest your head
   

Being as an Ocean - The Hardest Part Is Forgetting Those You Swore You Would Never Forget

Thank you for one of the most heartfelt, ecstatic and inspired performances among all that I've ever seen.
And now, while listening to this beautiful heartbreaking song and wandering through my secret memories, I bow my head in silent gratefulness...

How

How could you question God's existence
When you question God himself?
Why would you ask for God's assistance
If you wouldn't take the help?

If you're gone, then I need you
If you're gone, then how is any of this real?
When I'm on, I believe you
When I'm not, my knees don't even seem to feel

How could you tell me that I'm great
When they chew me up, spit me out, pissed on me?
Why would you tell me that it's fate
When they laughed at me, every day, in my face?

They say the end is coming sooner
But the end's already here
I said today is but a rumor
That we'll laugh at in a year
Or two, or three, or four, or five, whatever

If you're gone, then I need you
If you're gone, then how is any of this real?
When I'm on, I believe you
When I'm not, my knees don't even seem to feel

How?
How could you tell me that I'm great?
How?
How could you tell me that it's fate?
How?

The Neighbourhood - How

/ So hollow, but deep /

Still darkness is my favourite tune and sadness is my favourite feeling... And this song embodied all the desperate beauty of all the things I love and crave for deeply inside. And I'm in morbid love with it. Such kind of love, when I want to take a knife and just cut my hands.