Disco//very

I've got a friend with a melody that will kill

She'll eat you alive

Like cyanide it's poison

She'll eat you alive

Don't you battle we'll kill you

We'll rip you up and tear you in two

Don't you battle we'll kill you

We'll rip you up and tear you in two

Only in the sound of the voices I scream

I heard my name, now I'm gone, tell me what I did

You saw me standing on my lone mountain

Dare me to play, not to put it off

The tears are not worth the wait

Your loveliness is so worth it (so worth it)

You're another one in a long long time

Wrestling people for peace

Wrestling people for peace

Only in the sound of the voices I scream

Only in the sound of your voice did I scream

Only in the sound of the voices I scream

I make room for everyone

I make room for everyone

I need to take a break

Do you wanna look in my mind

Open up and see what you find

Holdin' on to just what I wanted

Hiding like a force, it was

Just behind the door, well, I wasn't not looking out

For nothing anymore but, oh look what I found

I was always talking too much

But only in the sound of my voice did I reach out

Only in the sound of the voice did I scream

Only in the sound of the voice did I scream

Warpaint - Disco//very

/ This is how trance sounds, looks and feels like /

Эти невероятные девушки безоговорочно претендуют на звание моих новых муз . Как же я люблю таких необычных, креативных, сумасшедших, открытых, свободных, ярких, обаятельных, сексапильных, неординарных и просто поразительных личностей. Они просто завораживают меня и я готова часами наслаждаться их музыкой, их голосами, их талантом, их глубиной... Они такие разные, но глядя на них, я начинаю понимать, что дело даже не в том, как ты выглядишь, а в том, что ты вкладываешь в свой взгляд, когда смотришь в глаза другому человеку. Ох, ведь лишь мысли о том, какие тайны скрываются за этим взглядом, способны повергнуть меня в долгие размышления и блуждания по своему собственному внутреннему миру.

Ох, парни-парни, вы великолепны, вы талантливы, вы созидательны, но почти во всем вы руководствуетесь исключительно своим блистательным умом, но может ли ваше сердце ощущать такой невероятный калейдоскоп чувств и эмоций, какой способно ощутить женское сердце? Я не знаю, но я верю, что где-то вы точно есть и кому-то повезет встретить вас на своем пути...
 

Но, возвращаясь к теме... Я невероятно люблю это видео. Этот радужный калейдоскоп невероятных чувств и эмоций. Этот невероятно яркий, вдохновляющий поток свободы и полноты. Свободы от общества, свободы от ненужных мыслей, свободы от времени. Это вечное солнечное лето...
А когда этот ослепляющий день меркнет и наступает ночь вдохновения, мое сердце замирает и слова просто исчезают из моей головы, превращаясь в чувство боли, которая является ничем иным как реакцией на истинную красоту. Как передать, то, что я вижу, слышу и чувствую? Как описать то, насколько это прекрасно, трогательно, печально, меланхолично? Просто безвременно... Словно прошлое и будущее вдруг встретились в одном прекрасном мгновении настоящего. И оно так похоже на мою мечту юности, мечту о свободной жизни, о днях, наполненных вдохновением, творчеством, музыкой и мечтами, путешествиями и новыми открытиями; вечерними прогулками с теми, кто разделяет все твои самые сокровенные мысли и эмоции; а самое главное - безграничной любовью, которая будет наполнять мое сердце, приводя меня в состояние эйфории и порой причиняя почти физическую боль. И когда я смотрю его, мне кажется, что эта мечта сбылась... И мне не нужно никуда спешить, ни о чем волноваться и ничего не бояться, а только лишь расслабиться и наслаждаться блаженством, которое будет длится вечно.

Spanish Sahara

So I walked into the haze
And a million dirty waves
Now I see you lying there
Like a lilo losing air, air
Black rocks and shoreline surf
Still that summer I cannot bear
And I wipe the sand from my eyes
Spanish Sahara, the place that you'd wanna
Leave the horror here

Forget the horror here
Forget the horror here
Leave it all down here
It's future rust and it's future dust

Now the waves they drag you down
Carry you to broken ground
Though I found you in the sand
Wipe you clean with dirty hands
So god damn this boiling space
Spanish Sahara, the place that you'd wanna
Leave the horror here

I'm the fury in your head
I'm the fury in your bed
I'm the ghost in the back of your head
Cause I'm...

A choir of furies in your head
A choir of furies in your bed
I'm the ghost in the back of your head
Cause I'm...

Foals - Spanish Sahara

/ No matter how much suffering you went through, you never wanted to let go of those memories /

/ I was thinking of writing something meaningful and filled with emotions today that I was laying awake thinking about last night. But I'm so vulnerable and low right now. And I never know just how intimate and personal I can allow myself to be anymore. I used to be unable to understand people who chose to close themselves off to the outside world as a response to pain. But the more hurt one encounters it's easy to try and protect your heart by forming a shell around it. Oh mother, it's so hard to be soft and warm and full of love in a world that wants you to be stone. Oh I do know coldness is a kiss of death to your soul, creativity and life itself. It is not an achievement to be cold. If something is frozen, it cannot move. And if it cannot move it will remain the same. And if we remain the same nothing will ever change. So if we lock ourselves in a negative emotional state it will never take us where we need to go. And I need to go.

hannatiensuu /

Back to the lonely state of mind and soul. Back to myself. Back to the place I actually have never left... Back to you, guys. To the place where everything was started so long ago. And so strange that this song just perfectly matches everything I've felt at the past times and what I'm feeling right now, because it just captures that feeling of despair and helplessness, but in the same time desicion to let go and move on so perfectly. And for me Foals' music is like vessel to where I can pour my soul and my heart out. "Leave it all down here, it's future rust, it's future dust"...

...Yes, I still remember: "Life is short, always take pictures". And at least I have a huge box of them.

So Good

You're too much, I can't take it

You always seem to make my heart stop and

I can tell that there's something in your eyes

Calling me

I want you now, I want you all over me

Can't you tell me all your secrets?

I'll tell you all mine

I'll tell you all mine

Saw you all alone on the outside

I knew your move

Do you remember me

The same way I do you?

I want you, open wide

Can't you tell me all your secrets?

I'll tell you all mine

I'll tell you all mine

You're so good

So good

So good

Going out of my mind

I'm handling it

Going out of my mind

I'm handling it

You're good, you're good, you're good

I'm handling it

So good, so good, so good

I'm handling it

Warpaint - So Good

/ Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high. / 

You are interested in it until there is something unknown behind this veil of darkness... But when you slightly open the veil everything will be gone... But maybe you will find a deep well there, and if you'll make just one careless step, you will fall into it and you will never be able to get out again.

And for now, just free yourself under this captivating tune and enjoy this beautiful irreversibility.

The Love You Let Too Close

This isn't just another sunset

Finality hangs low in the air

The last page of a story all too short

You can see there was a battle here

Substance and a pain eternal

Infidelity so infernal

A friend, lover, son and a brother

Taken too early by his own hand

The poison lays on the table

Note with a final goodbye within arms reach

If only we could see it in your eyes, so unstable

If only you could've shared the pain with me, if only

March twenty-sixth, the day you left us

Broken by the love you let too close I couldn't see

The pain in your heart, now it lives in your mother's eyes

And now you're gone and it's killing me

You couldn't bury the pain, I couldn't save you

You couldn't bury the pain, instead it buried you

You couldn't bury the pain, I couldn't save you

You couldn't bury it all

Now I just go through the motions

Watching it all just fade away

Now I just go through the motions

Taking it all day by day

Now I just go through the motions

Wishing that I could've noticed

Now I just go through the motions

Thousand Below - The Love You Let Too Close

“Because, if you could love someone, and keep loving them, without being loved back . . . then that love had to be real. It hurt too much to be anything else.” 

/ - I love you...

- Your problem /

So beautiful, so heartbreaking, so overwhelming, so deep like all-consuming, but unrequited love... And I know that I can't get it out of my heart, so I really feel like I need to give it away...

I'm so in love with this emotional and absolute phenomenal vocals, so pure and so tortured, this atmospheric instrumentals, this genuine, raw passion and humanity all-around. So beautiful, yet so sad...

Every song is reflection on something... And this is that kind of love I like the most.

Pigs

“Yet, no matter how deeply I go down into myself, my God is dark, and like a webbing made of a hundred roots that drink in silence”

Just Mustard - Pigs

/ Weclome back to the dark side /

I have no idea how band with such an odd name can play something so dark, mysterious and mesmerizing. Gosh, how much do I love to immerse myself in such unbelievable atmospheric music like this, the only one which can help me free my mind and wake up my deepest senses, while I discover a mystery of myself.

And I always wanted to think that shoegazing is something more than just a "shoe gazing"; that it is something beyond any bounds, something strange, disnant and inward. And yes, it just is... So now I know why shoegaze seemed so similar to "stargaze" to me (withal so similar to "crazed").

 

Violet Cold

"Each day is born with a sunrise and ends in a sunset, the same way we open our eyes to see the light,
and close them to hear the dark.
You have no control over how your story begins or ends.
But by now, you should know that all things have an ending.
Every spark returns to darkness.
Every sound returns to silence.
And every flower returns to sleep with the earth.
The journey of the sun and moon is predictable.

But yours, 

is your ultimate 

ART” 

Violet Cold - Life in Moments

/ In the light, we read the inventions of others; in the darkness we invent our own stories /

I'm tired of speaking about what's inside of me. And all I have inside is a Universe, woven of thoughts, feelings and dreams that explode, like supernovae, because of music like this. And I will never lose them, even If I will keep them in silence.
And now it's time to fade away in the darkness between the stars.

Lira

“Beyond the edge of the world there’s a space where emptiness and substance neatly overlap, where past and future form a continuous, endless loop. And, hovering about, there are signs no one has ever read, chords no one has ever heard.”

Night Verses - Lira

/ Take my hand and I will take you to the brink of non-existance /

I swear, this is one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard. 

I just want to get lost in it forever, because here I find everything I ever dreamed of and everything I ever wanted. Thoughts, feelings and emotions embodied in this music are sempiternal, endless and inconceivable as the Universe itself.

And I just want to say that I love you who created it, whoever you are and wherever you are. And this is the love I've been looking for all my life.