воскресенье, 26 июля 2020 г.

Vantablack


Poisonous eyes
Lay your poisonous eyes on me
And taint me if you dare
Ya' taint me if you're so smart
Scotch and soda in my blood
Where, can, I, get
Some more

I'm taking you home
I'm taking you home
I'm making a point
I'm taking you

Please allow me to play with my shiny stainless blade
And stroke your marble skin
And feel the steel slide between your thighs

Hush
You are not leaving this couch
Shut up
Or I'll smash every tooth in your mouth

Let me do a little dance
Let me show you some romance
Let me be a gentleman
Let me put on some jazz
Let me fetch some candles
Let me turn up the heat
Let me light up a Partagrás
Let me tie your ankles
Let me treat you like a queen

The pulse
The pulse in your throat
The pulse
The pulse in your throat
Beating louder now
Beating faster now
Beating faster

Digging my fingers
Deeper
Ever deeper
Into the flesh of your neck
Panting, both of us, panting
Panting
The pulse in your throat
Beating slower now
Beating slower now
Beating slower now


My consciousness now is a dark room, from the window of which a view of the night city opens, showing throught a veil of rain, rising through a mystical haze of fog gleaming in the impenetrable cold and lifeless, but such an alluring light of neon signs that promise you to tell all the secrets of the night city and the dark sides of human souls...
And this room - as my mind and my heart - is filled from edge to edge with the sounds of synthwave music - bewitchingly beautiful, dark, possessive and uncompromising. And as if in order to finally subjugate me to its will, this insinuating, painfully mysterious and delightfully exciting male voice weaves its way through this transcendental music. And gosh, this voice is so piercingly real, as if its mysterious overawing owner is hiding in the shadown of this room... And this darkness is so real that you can touch it... It's so tempting that you want to touch it.

четверг, 18 июня 2020 г.

The Constrictor


Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin
Sentenced to find the one that is gold
In a pile of nothing.

To our hearts we wreck we're reborn
I grow inside you I feel nothing
And when I'm born I will be ready

There's not enough of a reason to be ugly
I'll crucify you and burn until you're nothing
And if my body is bruised would you believe me that
I am more than you and what you're reading

Medic I feel headless
Leave me

Divided I'm carelessly counting my sins
The sight of growing too old to begin

And if the world never died
I'd live long enough to forget what its shape is
I lost each one of my eyes
In a world mind versus the question


My savior. Music that is not connected with anything in my life, but which seems to have always been with me. Music to soothe a broken heart. Music, to fill a devastated consciousness. My place between heaven and hell.

среда, 10 июня 2020 г.

Lost Boy


I want to know if you can change your life and not betray your own soul
I just want to know but i don't care who you are.
I want to know if you can see the beauty and don't hide your eyes
I don't want to know how did you get here.

I don't care what you have lived
I don't care how old you are

I want to know if you stayed open after betrayals of life
I just want to know but i don't care who you are.
I want to know if you still want to risk and lose your way home
I don't want to know how did you get here.

I don't care what you have lived
I want to know what you are now


Как насчет абсолютной свободы и возможности бесконечно двигаться вперед по извилистой дороге, которая может привести тебя туда, куда ты только мог мечтать? Как насчет нескончаемого лета, теплого аромата земли после дождя, сливающегося с вдохновенным и волнующим благоуханием цветов? Пылинок, танцующих в золотых лучах послеполуденного солнца, ветра, колышущего колосья в необъятных полях? Как насчет величественных горных гряд, тающих в голубом мареве? Таинственной морской глади, уносящей твой взор в бесконечность, а твое сердце - в непроглядную тьму морских пучин? Как насчет густых лесов, в листе которых так причудливо тень и свет переплетаются между собой...? Как насчет тихого дыхания вечерних сумерок, наконец-то приносящих с собой долгожданную прохладу и окрашивающих все вокруг в цвета из иных миров...? Как насчет бесконечности ночного неба над головой, усыпанной миллионами звезд, окутанной незримой дымкой, состоящая из непостижимых тайн и загадок, таких же неуловимых и бесконечных, как те чувства и эмоции, которые способен ощутить человек, всего-навсего включив такую музыку, как эта.


среда, 3 июня 2020 г.

No Dog


With an arch of the neck and the bristling of fur,
I'll cling to the earth with a footing that's sure.
With sinewy limbs, pounding the ground,
By the scruff of your neck, I'll hold you for hours.

As brutes in a brawl, in an exchange of blows,
I'll spring for your throat, break open your bones.
With a punishing jaw, that's eager to grip,
Baring teeth that are starting to drip.

And I've fire in my heart and it's dogged and pure,
Just waiting to leap, to wrestle in dirt.
Is your steel true? Have you an iron will?
Have you mastered the laws that nature has built?

Because I am no man, but I am alive
And I am no dog, I am a wolf.

I! Am! No! Dog! I! Am! A! Wolf!
I! Am! No! Dog! I! Am! A! Wolf!

Esben and the Witch - No Dog

Gosh, how unique, intense and emotional this music is. This vocal gets under your skin, consuming you, while you are drowning in surging waves of divergent and diverse post-rock under the heavy skies of gloomy aesthetic. Each song of these guys sounds like a magical rite, bewitching you with all its entity and converting you to its religion...

понедельник, 1 июня 2020 г.

Choke


Over time, I let that seed of uncertainty bloom into a tree.
A tree which cannot be cut down for me.
A compulsion which befell every part of me. 
I had crawled back into the rabbit hole
I thought I'd never return to, but I am accustomed.

To avoid any leaves of self doubt amidst loved ones.
The dirt and earth collapsed and trickled down above me,
behind me, as I burrowed deeper and deeper.
The more I struggle, the more I die.

Inevitability of darkness. What once was a seed of doubt
are roots that shelter me and remind me where I belong --
In a hole.
I choke on the world. I choke on the world.
And I swallow its contents painfully, yet willingly


This is a long, entangled road through a cold autumn forest under the blackened skies, crying with small tears of rain. And I find an irresistible charm in these impenetrable twilight, concealing only sadness and unanswered questions, in these unhurried melancholic tunes that sound like a spell, like a prayer, like the silent conversations between the two irreconcilable parts of your soul...

четверг, 21 мая 2020 г.

The Family Disease

 

I'll vomit illusions,
Trick myself that i'm happy,
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born

I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes,
I reach from birth just to die,
I keep the devil inside I grow him in me

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,

Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe I only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born

I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.

I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes


How could I look at you all this time but not see you? How could I exchange only fleeting glances with you, when now I just can’t take my eyes off you, I want to look at you endlessly? Drowning in the waves of melancholy, sadness and incredible beauty dissolved in your voice. A voice that can rise you to the top of the world and drown you down in the abyss of pain. To listen and ask a question: is there a limit to the beauty and these feelings that can fit in a person’s heart? And listening to this music, I restrain myself not to cry. But I won't cry. Walking here is endless. And I'll never want to leave this place.

четверг, 14 мая 2020 г.

The Jester


 Like a Jester at the ball
Rubbed my shoulders with the kings
And I was draped in gold and velvet
Bathing in applause while I was jumping through the rings
And then the cooks would sound a bell
And all the kings would lick their lips
But I couldn't find a place mat
The dinner table's full and there's no room for me to sit

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
Just say you want me, just say you need me
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
Does anybody need me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?
With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders.
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?

Lord, I live to entertain
All my pride is in my praise
I hum along with this vibration
And hope to god I make it
If any chord that I could strum
Made me feel less like a man
I'd slam my fingers in the doorway
And shatter all the bones so I could never strum again

Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
Just say you want me, just say you need me
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?
For me?

Is every last soul just fucking me over?
With tears on their shoes and ice on their shoulders
Is there anybody out there looking out for me?


Who would have ever thought that musicians, trying to be so cool, pretentious and audacious, behind such a screaming and tasteless cover hide such soulful music, music, that crawl to the bones, creep into every secret corner of your soul, open the doors to where you have never been and for a so long time not allowing you to get out of these corridors, beyond the countless doors of which there are so many life stories, sad, devastating, rude, dirty, but so insanely poetic... I can't get it out from my head for weeks now and hope I will never be able to.