Counting Cards

Picture me counting cards, dear
Pick any kind you like
Picture them colored red, dear
Black will hold back the light
For the stars in our eyes are just diamonds, broke

Jokes we tell to laugh, dear
Laugh to hold back the pain
Pain is in the mind, dear
Stars are much the same
Gone in the time it takes the light to reach
In time you'll find
We're blind to the things we don't believe

Picture us out in Vegas counting bills before a show
Spending em from New Orleans where we spent the week before
And the stars in our eyes are the lights from the flash
Pictures of us in black, dear
Rolling on the red carpets laid on concrete
Counting billboards where we've read
That the stars of our minds shine bright in the dark
Like diamonds, diamonds

Hearts in our cards and our silver strung guitars
Say hear me when I call
Hear me when I come in late
You're wide awake
I'm sorry is not enough
I'm sorry I'm not enough to stay

Faded by
In time with the back of your bed
Am I that levy you take, that levy you hold
Faded by in time
With the back of your bed
Am I that levy you break, that levy you hold

Paint me red, paint me red
Picture that, picture that
Picture us and God shaking hands just because we can
Like DMC we run this shit, Run DMC
What's tricky to get we got
Watch me murder this
Watch me murder this

Planes fly due west, and
Plain in my view is the blame for the fault in our stars
Counting cards in the dark
We sit and talk, bleeding it out
Believing that all our stars are just diamonds
Hearts in our cards and our silver strung guitars
Say hear me when I call
Hear me when I come in late
You're wide awake
I'm sorry is not enough, I'm sorry I'm not enough to stay

RKS - Counting Cards

So... Maybe I'm cheating, but first of all, I want to see the 13th post here, because 13x3 is pretty cool combination (although I still don't understand how I managed to make 39 posts). And secondly, I want this strangely beautiful song to be imprinted here for many years. Because all of a sudden this song became something special for me. Because there is a mystery in it that I want to listen to over over again, trying to fathom it. Because it is constantly changing. Because someday I may lost it forever.

"You're like the mystery that's just beyound sight and sound, always just beyond my reach"

Play God

 

 
You were cracking all your fingers
With your eyes fixed to the floor
Sound did echo down the street
By the morn you meant your heat
Pilot screaming through a megaphone
"Get your hands off the Middle East"
Every word would hurt the Senegal
Every word would cut your teeth

It's all the same down in the capital
All the suits in cladded feet
Sewer rats will shower the underground
In a race to make ends meet

And he will play God
And he will play God

Am I mistaken?
We're already braking
On our way from the long time
Baby play God

And he will play God

No matter who you are or where you been
He is watching from the screen
Keeps a keen eye on the in-between
From the people to the Queen

And he will play God
He will play God

Sam Fender - Play God

Too hard to understand. Too elusive to explain. Too beautiful to just pass it by. Too deep to not let it captivate your soul.

Pie(a)ce of Mind

I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought

I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cause there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought

If my life is for rent
And I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cause nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well, how can I say I'm alive?

If my life is for rent
And I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cause nothing I have is truly mine

Cause nothing I have is truly mine

Dido - Life for Rent 

Just an unbelievable beautiful song from my past that suits this picture and my thoughts.

There is such a unique type of people, communication with whom fills world around you with an incredible bright light. But sometimes there is a one big problem: when this sun goes down, it is quite difficult to get used to the dusk you find yourself in, trying to find this light within yourself over and over again.
 

Cassius

No other picture can describe this song better than these awesome guys themselves

Cassius is over!
Cassius away!
Cassius these daydreams, these daydreams decay!

Cassius an accident!
Lighthouse (Life) is an accident!
The lighthouse (Love) is an accident!

Wish you've gone-a, wish you've gone away, what you've gone-a
What you've got has always gone away
Cassius! Cassius! At best, it's all that we could do,
All that we could do

The wind is in, the wind is in my heart, the wind is in-
Now what you've got has always gone away
Cassius! Cassius! At best, it's all that we could do,
All that we could do
Cassius, is over! You're second best!
Cassius, it's over! You're second best!
It's over! You're second best!
Second best!

Foals - Cassius

When you are crazy about something that normal people at best will never understand...) And I must admin, I didn't get it myself when I've heard this song for the first time. But now I literally can't live without this song and this video. Because what I see is so odd, different and... unbelievable cute.
"Foals on the matinee" - this is how I call them. "Jane I have never known before" - this is how I call myself)

Love them so freaking much (and yeah, I'm still surprised!)

Lonely Hunter

It's a new day just in time for me to say I'm sorry

For all the things I said but didn't mean

It's a new time, so why must I wait in line for what is mine? 

It's a new day, why must it be the same?

It's a new year just in time for me to say

I'd be there but didn't make the grade to new time

So why must I wait in line for what is mine?

It's a new day always feels the same

Been gone too long, so don't wait up, it's 3 a.m., I got held up

Tried to call, I'm on my way

Will I see you? I've got lost in foreign lands

Tried to get back, oh, I hoped you understand

Wait forever for love is a gun in your hand

In the deep blue I'm a hundred miles from land

Treading water, it's too deep for me to stand

Just remember love is a gun in your hand 

In the deep blue see the whitecaps from the shore 

But I can't swim, and it keeps me wanting more

Just remember love is a gun in your hand

Will I see you? I've got lost in foreign lands

Tried to make it back, oh, I hoped you understand

Wait forever for love is a gun in your hand

Foals - Lonely Hunter

I will remember yesterday as a day when I was gone with the wind, was lost in the clouds, was dissolved in the blue depth of the sky, was leaded away by the beautity of shoreline and was swept away with the waves. Far from everyone, far from bustle is the happiest and pureest place to be... The place, where I can read my memories like an illustrated book and let my thoughts fly away far away from me in search of something that matters...

And this song will represent my feelings and my perception of the day in the most beautiful way... Because this song is what I felt yesterday and just everything I always wanted to feel...

 

The Great Below

Staring at the sea
Will she come?
Is there hope for me
After all is said and done
Anything at any price
All of this for you
All the spoils of a wasted life
All of this for you
 

All the world has closed her eyes
Tired faith all worn and thin
For all we could have done
And all that could have been

Ocean pulls me close
And whispers in my ear
The destiny I've chose
All becoming clear
The currents have their say
The time is drawing near
Washes me away
Makes me disappear

And I descend from grace
In arms of undertow
I will take my place
In the great below

I can still feel you
Even so far away

 Nine Inch Nails - The Great Below

Today is the day that belongs to the keeper of my twilight dreams, evening reflections and eternal seeking of solitude, Trent Reznor... I can't completely understand and explain how much he means to me. This inconceivable combination of his music and his personality will always be a place that I can truly call home. And it doesn't matter how would I feel myself or wherever life would take me, I always will find peace with him.
He has bleed into me deeper than anyone ever could. I felt him more perceptible than everyone. His pain, his loneliness, his helplessness, his despair, his aggression, his desire, his darkness that is alike a moonless night and his light that alike the last rays of a dying sunset. The depths he reaches are limitless. The worlds he leads to are magnificent. The emotions he gives are inexplicable.
And he always will be biggest, truest and everlasting love of my life. My mind's eye always turned to him, the same way as I gaze to the stars in the night sky, to the infinite line of horizon, to the unthinkable colors of sunset, to the light of night streets...

You will always be with me, no matter where I will find myself tomorrow. I will always return to you... As it was and ever shall be.

Get Right

Hands will take their place

Far from intentions made

Disguised as patience, time gets wasted

Now is for the now, so get loud

Hands will find their way

To eyes inches from my face

My heart gets beating, I drink freely

How to hold it down, hold it down?

I'm, I'm destination addicted

I just gotta be some place else

Never good time, never feel the space to get it right

Get right

Okay, okay, enough

Let me explain

Okay, okay, get up

Get on with it

Maybe if I stand up straight

One small thing I can change

Maybe if I, maybe If I, maybe I

I'm, I'm destination addicted

I just gotta be some place else

Never good time, never feel the space to get it right

Get right

Jimmy Eat World - Get Right

How much I do like it when song is like injection through my veins right to the heart. I love when music makes my head spinning and makes me feel like I don't belong to myself anymore... at least for this moment. And wait a minute, is that Jimmy Eat World? Oh my... Sometimes wonders really happens.

Gods and Monsters

 
In the land of Gods and Monsters
I was an Angel
Living in the garden of evil
Screwed up, scared, doing anything that I needed
Shining like a fiery beacon

You got that medicine I need
Fame, Liquor, Love give it to me slowly
Put your hands on my waist, do it softly
Me and God, we don't get along so now I sing

No one's gonna take my soul away
I'm living like Jim Morrison
Headed towards a fucked up holiday
Motel sprees sprees and I'm singing
"Fuck yeah give it to me this is heaven, what I truly Want"
It's innocence lost, innocence lost

When you talk it's like a movie and you're making me crazy
Cause life imitates art
If I get a little prettier can I be your baby?
You tell me, "Life isn't that hard"

No one's gonna take my soul away
I'm living like Jim Morrison
Headed towards a fucked up holiday
Motel sprees sprees and I'm singing
"Fuck yeah give it to me this is heaven, what I truly Want"
It's innocence lost, innocence lost
 

Lana Del Rey - Gods & Monsters 
 

I can't get this song out of my mind for so long time... She enveloped and enslaved after I heard it a week ago in a strange macabre performance shrouded in a dark and mysterious atmosphere of "American Horror Story", not even guessing who it belongs to...
I really love this girl, this elusive and beautiful vision from the past. In fact, her music was never close to me, like those times she sings about, but she always fascinated me with her painful melancholy and unbelievable beauty. And the more I listen to her, the more she leads me away to unexplored depths of my subconscious, where I have never been... But it's too inexplicable for me, so let it be unspoken. 

Map of the Problematique

Fear and panic in the air

I want to be free

From desolation and despair

And I feel like everything I sow

Is being swept away

Well I refuse to let you go

I can't get it right

Get it right

Since I met you

Life will flash before my eyes

So scattered and lost

I want to touch the other side

And no one thinks they are to blame

Why can't we see

That when we bleed we bleed the same

I can't get it right

Get it right

Since I met you

Loneliness be over

When will this loneliness be over

Muse - Map of the Problematique

Into the great.

One day I found absolutely endless and inconceivable beauty I could ever dream about. It's nothing but a music of perfection. Ideal music for discover your inner Universe and get lost in it. And these lyrics... Gosh. May I just bow my head in silent contemplation?

It's such an incredible ability of music: to speak for you and do it better than you've ever been able to do it yourself. And you just have to look at these lines and try to believe that you actually see your thoughts between them while the music expresses your feelings. I truly believe than music is the one and only thing in the world that can lend you a hand when no one else can help you. But despite all the despair permeated through this song, it is truly able to fill this void inside. 

Because when you keep the Universe inside of you, there always will be too many dark matter and black holes in it.

Hysteria

 

 

It's bugging me
Grating me
And twisting me around

Yeah I'm endlessly
Caving in
And turning inside out

Yeah it's holding me
Morphing me

And forcing me to strive

To be endlessly
Caving in
And dreaming I'm alive

'Cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
I'm not breaking down
I'm breaking out
Lace chance to lose control
 

And I want you now
I want you now
I feel my heart implode
And I'm breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

Muse - Hysteria

When everything is under control.

Weird And Wonderful

I can see it in your right mind

Ever thought to wonder you're not typical

You're weird and wonderful

But you will never know, no

Our personalities sometimes collide

With an open mind, I need it physical

I want it weird and wonderful

We will always fall just short

Remember what we were taught

Hold on tightly

I will not come down

Making memories last

Feel this energy

Pour my heart out

Making memories last

Marmozets - Weird And Wonderful

To everyone who will always feel irresistible attraction to everything weird and wonderful.

 

Leeloo

Through all of the change all stays the same
Monotonous patterns create the waves which take over shore
Leaving you lie in the wake
Through all of the change all stays the same

Your request for higher ground is everlasting
We dwell in the flatlands moving about as nomads
Higher ground is only found within
This arrives to no surprise

Still the night hears the cries of a man with a wounded passion

If this is what I seek
I shall seek no longer
The truth is wretched
The devil in disguise
Will I watch you die?

 

Veil of Maya - Leeloo

 

 Wherever destiny may lead me, this is who I am and always will be.

 

The Bay

I'm just a drop in the ocean
A tiny grain of sand
Trying to run for the shoreline
But we're miles away from land

Just lay me down beside you
Cause we've nowhere left to go
Down beneath the waves love
We move so soft and slow
So soft and slow

We hold on to each other tight
Waiting for dawn's early light
Srtanded petrified
We're waiting for the end
Down by the bayside
Where death greets you like a long lost friend

Help me find a way
Back to the start again
I've strayed too far from view
And now there's no help left to send
If I go does the world keep spinning without me
Cause if it does I don't want to know
As time slows just give me to the ocean
Steal my heart and soul

Here comes the tide
Wait for a lifeline
Place your fingers in mine
We'll wait for a lifetime

Stereo Honey - The Bay

Yesterday I explored the uncharted music trails in the hope of finding something beautiful and melancholy, and I found the perfect song for stepping into the last month of spring, still full of joy and happines, but at the same time so sad and wasting, because everything is passing away without making any sence...