Feeling Alright

 

Under the branches of feeling alright

I feel asleep just to dream about
I know too many reasons to fight
So glad that I have taken my time

My mind is made of simple thoughts
I'm going up to start this day
Soon you see me now

Under the falling sky feeling alright
Careless, not hopeless, you can't bring me down
But I know too many reasons to fight
So glad that I have you on my side, I've taken my time

Only this life here is happening
I can see these two things, I'm not worried
First rule of thumb you gave: promise not to fade away
So where do you go to sleep now?

My mind is made of simple thoughts
I'm going up to start this day
Soon you see me now 

Warpaint - Feeling Alright

They put a spell on me that will lasts forever. This is like a world created of everything that I ever loved and cherished, swallowed in soft fragile gauze, so weightless, so mysterious, so melancholic and so endlessly beautiful.

Bermuda Locket

I got to tell you something 

I wanna view your dreams 

I wanna pull out your crazy and pour it over me. 

I might take you somewhere far across the seas 

I need your faith, I need your everything. 

As you enter into my curse 

Our dreams reverse and the demons burst... 

So I wait, anticipate to meet you tonight, 

Come this way and I will bring your dreams to life. 

I wanna move you somewhere close to ecstasy 

I might tell you things some which you won't believe 

I wanna view the signals that control your brain 

I need a taste I need your everything. 

As you enter into my curse 

Our dreams reverse and the demons burst... 

So I wait, anticipate to meet you tonight 

Just come this way and I will bring your dreams to life. 

From the first time I saw you till now 

I have counted the years that have gone by 

We'll release those demons tonight, tonight. 

So I wait, anticipate to meet you tonight

Just come this way and I will bring your dreams to life. 

So I save this occasion to meet you tonight 

Just come this way and I will bring your dreams to life.

Crosses - Bermuda Locket

/ He is darkness. And I'm in love with him. /

Oh, what are you doing to me...?

This music is my shrine, my misty sacred place, the reflection of my twilight dreams... But I really have never thought that I would find music that could bewitch me so badly, forcing me to simply lose my head, but to find my heart again... With this music the world becomes so different, the greatest love appears in here, love, which lives only in the most romantic books, mystery, that pierces the pages of the most incredible books, something dark, otherworldly, sweet, bewitching, incomprehensible and eternal...

Stripped

Come with me

Into the trees

We'll lay on the grass

And let the hours pass

Take my hand

Come back to the land

Let's get away

Just for one day

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Metropolis

Has nothing on this

You're breathing in fumes

I taste when we kiss

Take my hand

Come back to the land

Where everything's ours

For a few hours

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you

Make decisions

Without your television

Let me hear you speaking

Just for me

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you speaking

Just for me

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you crying

Just for me

Depeche Mode - Stripped

The craving for darkness and unknown depths was here ith me as far as I know myself. As well as the love of measured drift on the enveloping and lulling waves of nostalgia, surrounded by dark and alluring soundscapes. One of my favorite songs, then and now. Always.

Sun. Tears. Red

 

Each day is born with a sunrise
and ends in a sunset, the same way we
open our eyes to see the light,
and close them to hear the dark.
You have no control over
how your story begins or ends.
But by now, you should know that
all things have an ending.
Every spark returns to darkness.
Every sound returns to silence.
And every flower returns to sleep
with the earth.
The journey of the sun
and moon is predictable.
But yours,
is your ultimate
ART.

Jambinai - Sun. Tears. Red

Welcome to the sinister forest, pierced with the labirynth of misty trails which lead to places never seen before. Step into and make your way through the maze of mysterious whispers and harrowing screams breaking thorough a charming layer of the volatile instrumental, - so unusual, so strange, so magical, - to tear them apart and create new elusive harmony which exists in absolutely new dimensions of this world.

August Winterman

 

And If I could teach the world to be..
I'd teach them all to be something just like me
Frustrated, bitter, depressing

Perfect... As if my wings were like yours
But I'm falling down

And if you could hold your tongue long enough..
You'd see that all I am is love, but I don't like me
I despise me

Perfect... As if my wings were like yours
But I'm falling down
Perfect... As if my wings were like yours
But I'm falling down

It's a disease they'll never have a cure for
You're the only way to dry my eyes
It's a disease, they'll never have a cure
But I'm the one whose wrong. I'm the one who cries
It's a disease, they'll never have a cure for
It's a disease, they'll never have a cure
But I'm the one whose wrong. I'm the one who cries

I cry... I despise me

Dead Poetic - August Winterman 

/ We are the misfits, the outcasts, the broken things, the ugly animals. People will never see us as normal human beings. We love the darkness because it keeps us invisible, we don’t want to be seen and we don’t want to see cruelty either. We find life hard to live, that’s why every now and then some of us choose to leave. Not because life is hard or difficult, but for us it’s impossible.
I wish I can find a way to be happy, I wish I could find a way to forget all that I’ve lived. I wish I could simply live. /

I close my eyes and disappear. There's too much memories, too much atumn leaves, too much lonely walks under pale skyes, under rain drops. There's too much sadness, to much love and too much hidden passion. There's too much of me. 

But really, I have no words to explain what this song means to me ... So I’ll just say that if I could become a song, I would become exactly this one. This lyrics, this darkness, this everything.

"And If I could teach the world to be... I'd teach them all to be something just like me. Frustrated, bitter, depressing".

Juno

All the silhouettes that pass us by

The sound of shrieks and familiar cries

Will vanish into the illusion

No serenity, never compromise

There's no dignity as you fraternize

With your delusions

So set me free, take all you need

And I will wait

Together we're jaded

And now we're renovated

Wings of flames are burning the wreckage of my life

At last I've terrified us, set fire to the stars at night

They can't be this far, the judgement now begins

A being from the inside

Vanishing into thin air

My body hits the floor

I'm smaller than before

Crisis, man overboard

Emergency abort

I watch them dancing

Oh, the fireflies at war gather

Oh, the damage that's been done, paid for

Won't you reveal yourself to me?

As I rise above the deep

Won't you reveal yourself to me? Oh...

Oh, the fireflies above gather

Oh, the damage that's been done, paid for

Now won't you save yourself for me?

Won't you save yourself for me? Oh...

Tesseract - Juno

/ Each time a breeze starts, I feel the air all the way through me. /

Back to the roots and further into the depths.

Dan Tompkins, I'm in love with your voice.

Hexes

Is there something I should know

Of the colours that you show

I remember those words

In the back of my mind

There is an old phantom

It isn't a secret this mind's shrouded in history

It isn't a secret this mind spirals in disarray

It isn't a secret this mind shudders in mystery

It isn't a secret I find terror in memory

Come close

Don't be afraid

It's stranger than you think

Desperately opiate, weary

Feverish host to us, teary eyed

History hexes us

History hexes us

Don't look, don't think, don't feel, don't move, don't breathe, don't make a sound,

It lives, it breaths, in my conscious mind

(Rosebud don't change)

It isn't a secret this mind's shrouded in history

It isn't a secret this mind spirals in disarray

It isn't a secret this mind shudders in mystery

It isn't a secret I find terror in memory

I live and breathe again

These gory locks

Don't you dare forget them

Don't you dare!

Don't you dare!

History hexes us

I breathe again!

History hexes us

I'll live again!

Tesseract - Hexes

“Closed in a room, my imagination becomes the universe, and the rest of the world is missing out.” 

I am drowning in the magical tenderness of your voice. It's like a perfect dream, too beautiful to be true, too fragile to forget that the real life is always waiting behind these walls...

It's Gonna Hurt

 You know it's gonna hurt
But you do it anyway
If you know it's gonna hurt
Could you at least look away
Your trembling eyes betray your pain
You could never forgive me

You know it's gonna hurt
But there's nothing left to lose
You know it's gonna hurt
And you know it'll hurt me too
You said, "fuck this world"
You don't owe it shit
And most nights I agreed with you
I never thought you'd really do it

That crooked smile
A soft "fuck you"
You could never forgive me

If the lies they spewed turned up true
They said you knew what you were doing
I could never forgive you

You know it's gonna hurt

Cursive - It's Gonna Hurt

Как же я люблю песни с атмосферой, с характером, рассказывающие свою уникальную историю. Не могу наслушаться ей. Этот невероятный бас, то печальный, то резкий, то агрессивный. эта тревожная виолончель, мягко проникающая в самое сердце и уносящая его в туманные дали, эта мистическая, почти алиеническая мелодия, вплетающаяся в песню и завершающая эту невероятную композицию... Гипнотическая музыка...

Ordovicium: The Glaciation of Gondwana

The cracks weren't visible in the beginning

Now we're staring deep down into the guts of the earth

We've been watching these two tectonic plates slowly drifting apart

And when the first cracks appeared on the surfaces, we had surrendered our hopes to reality

Odds and ends adding up to a serious kick in the teeth of vanity

At this stage, any will for solutions had bowed to the gallows

You showed your true colors only in my absence

Crawl away

Don't grind your teeth

Make believe you were never here

You piled up inside of you an extensive collection of small monuments to frustration and failure to communicate

And this was the tragic dilemma of our constellation:

Not the difference between us but the lack of honest talks

You showed your true colors only in my absence

Crawl away

Don't grind your teeth

Make believe you were never here

I turned the tables on you after you had seized everything that was not nailed to the floor, or locked away

And now you're waving the flag of justice and equity

The devil takes the hindmost

The Ocean Collective - Ordovicium: The Glaciation of Gondwana

How unbelievable this music is, how crushingly heavy and painful beautiful. It is in every sound, every word, every emotion it throws to you to knock you off from your feet down to your knees.
It sound just like I am listening to Gojira and Sylosis at the same time, and it feels so majestic. 

Kodoku Ni Shisu, Yueni Kodoku

I have lived in restrict I want to disappear more then to forget
I laugh back at people like you, who act like you understand

You people just live on laughing, saying something good will happen tomorrow
There was always something different about you
and me and
the way you talk from the beginning

It's not unusual anymore to get hurt by you

Just wishing it wasn't real is my only negative way to escape...

ash to ash
I am just garbage with an umbrella So give me my dream
I am used to hiding underneath the umbrella So I want you for me
Can you hear me?

Dir en grey - Kodoku ni Shisu Yueni Kodoku

/ Nobody has ever measured, how much the heart can hold. /

Forever and always. No words can describe how much I do love you.

No One Is Ever Going to Want Me

I'm armed to the teeth

Like a fucking animal

I ruin everything

I get my bony hands on

And here we go, now

Over the bridge of sighs

We will get a cross like Christ, crucified

It's like a birth but it is in reverse

Never gets better, always gets worse

I'll gnaw at anything

New england is mine, and

It owes me a living

And here we go, now

Over the bridge of sighs

We will get a cross like Christ, crucified

It's like a birth but it is in reverse

Never gets better, always gets worse

And here we go, now

(Step one, step two)

Over the bridge of sighs

(Step three, step four)

We will get a cross like Christ, crucified

(We fall through the floor)

It's like a birth but it is in reverse

(Fall through the floor)

Never gets better, always gets worse

(Fall through the floor)

One, two, fuck you!

I want to feel like I feel when I'm asleep

I wanna feel

I want to feel like I feel when I'm asleep

Sleep!

Giles Corey - No One Is Ever Going to Want Me

/ Sorrow comes in great waves...but rolls over us, and though it may almost smother us, it leaves us. And we know that if it is strong, we are stronger, inasmuch as it passes and we remain. /

One of the most beautiful things in the world, one of the deepest and purest part of human soul. The comfort of sadness and grief. 

I want to feel like I feel when I'm asleep...

Above Control

Above control

I like to hear

I like your eyes

It brings me joy

You'd fit in mine

I love to sow

I have for so

Bear it on

I want to know

To see the low

It's getting madder than you know

I want to go see you now

I love, I love, I love, I love, I love

I love, I love, I love, I love, I love

Above control

Above control

With the waking hours

Something I can't go without

I want to say but I don't

Who is my avalanche

Something gotta take me out

To be above control

Say it

Get out my life

Get me out

Get out my life

And send me

Above control

Dumb enough to see you, bear it on

Now you see me walking on

Somebody sees you, somebody sees your ground

Get out, get out

Above control

Have you seen me walking on solid

Have you seen me walking on solid ground?

Warpaint - Above Control

/ I spent uncounted hours sitting at the bow looking at the water and the sky, studying each wave, different from the last, seeing how it caught the light, the air, the wind; watching patterns, the sweep of it all, and letting it take me. The sea. /

This is one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard and, honestly, I just have no words to describe this abyss of feeligs it wakes in me. As if these shades of beauty and sadness were born at the time of the creation of this world and have been evolving all the time time along with it. But maybe there is something divine inside of this music, something unreal that cannot be realized and understood, but what always lives in the depths of the human soul. And whatever I may say, this will always be not enough.

This music is boundless and eternal, like the endless movement of waves rolling on the endless coast, spreaded from the edge to the edge, over and over again. Only the sea and the stones, only the sound of the surf, only the endless sky and wind, only you and no one else and nothing else in the whole world. And the world few of us keep inside.

Lachrymose

 

A Continent Named Coma - Lachrymose

 

/ It’s not that we have to quit this life one day, it’s how many things we have to quit all at once: holding hands, hotel rooms, music, the physics of falling leaves, vanilla and jasmine, poppies, smiling, anthills, the color of the sky, coffee and cashmere, literature, sparks and subway trains... If only one could leave this life slowly! /

Let's bring something endlessly sad, tortured and painfully beautiful to this world. Something almost unnamed. August is almost over now, and every time it's come to an end I start feeling like my life is over, too. Things just passing by and every momemnt dies away. To live is to die.

Phoenix IV: Levitation

 

Night Verses - Phoenix IV: Levitation

My life, composed of small solitary joys,
Violent romances, blessed and deep silences,
A abundance of poetry, moments of insanity and disillusion,
Will be always painful, always beautiful -
Will be the ultimate ode, before all others
Which rises from the depths of my own -
The moments themselves, which make up my life,
Before my body, cristallized in time,
In the endlessness that goes forward.

Phoenix IV. Levitation просто невероятно и безумно красивая, ностальгически-печальная, таинственно-притягательная и болезненно прекрасная. Знаешь, вот иногда ты встречаешь песни, в которых словно отражается все твое счастливое прошлое, все твои воспоминания, все твои томления и печали, радости и слезы, вся твоя свобода и вдохновение, которые были у тебя когда-то в руках, которые теперь живут в твоем сердце, словно крылья, на которых ты уже не можешь улететь так высоко и так далеко, но которые еще можешь раскрыть, чтобы ощутить легкие потоки ветра вокруг себя и услышать еле слышный шёпот прожитых дней... И именно в этой песне, среди сотен других прекрасных песен, я разглядела свое отражение. Как это было и есть с "Ghosts I", "Into Perk Walk", "Welcome to Biddeford" и саундтреком к "The Lord Of The Rings". Это всё я.

The Roots Run Deep

 

Back out on the road when we were young
We thought buildings would be named after us
I burrowed under ground as deep as I could
I didn’t belong up top and the sun was too bright anyway
I took you with me, held on for as long as I could;
Until you broke free and fed yourself into he night

I’m alone in here now, I’m alone in here now and I’m mixed up
I’m alone in here now, I’m alone in here now and I’m mixed up

Her Name Is Calla - The Roots Run Deep

/ Little by littlet hings began to assume a new aspect. The sense of insecurity vanished, words came of themselves, I was no longer so painfully conscious of everything I said... I felt the great soft wave approach and embrace me; the dark hour began to fill with pictures and stealthily the noise-less procession of dreams appeared again superimposed on the dreary, grey landscape of existence.
And suddenly it was no longer this place - it was a little corner of the world, a haven of refuge, a dugout around which the eternal battle of chaos wasraging and in which we two sat sheltering, mysteriously drifted to one another through the twilight of time. /

This is such a rare and great pleasure to find such an album. Incredibly soft, enveloping, carrying you on its waves into the mysterious world of oblivion, from which anyone doesn't want to come back.

This music is absolutely beautifual and genuine like world of nature and nature of feelings itself in all of its magnificent expressions. I love how experimental this music is, and what's more, this instrumental passages and subtle atmosphere embody a real understanding of art music.

Die Happy

So what is this so-so-society?

Still drinking that Kool-Aid like it's free

Still popping that poison blow blow blow

Political you know how it goes

Is this dystopia?

Fame is the bait

(And the switch is the look in your eye)

What will you ask?

(While we wait for the past to arrive)

Fame is the bait

(And the switch is your head in the sand)

Time that we waste

(While we wait for the future to land)

Die happy

In the summertime

So happy

I could die

This city is thick with common thieves

Still passing around the same disease

Who's running this town and why are we?

Still drinking that Kool-Aid like it's free

In this dystopia?

Metric - Die Happy

Ох, начало этой песни волнует мою душу намного большее ее продолжения - какое же оно прекрасное и многообещающее... За звуками этой мелодии словно затаилась таинственная печаль, и вот она мягко подкрадывается к тебе и ты не знаешь, какую из ее бесчисленных граней тебе суждено будет открыть для себя на этот раз... Но внезапно нотки наигранной радости врываются в нее и вся тайна и трепет предвкушения исчезают, оставляя горечь разочарования. Но эта песня все равно идеальна, ведь это именно то, что она хочет показать: пустую оболочку, сотканную из искусственной радости, за которой медленно бьется остывшее и опустевшее сердце.

Когда ты счастлив. умирать совсем не хочется, но поверь - умереть счастливым это самое лучшее, что может случится в этой жизни.

Own Worst Enemy

I gotta give it to ya
Yeah, you talk real tough
Say you're nothing but love
Bet it gets under your skin
And when it gets too much then the Devil steps in

I chew your ears off for hours
Yeah, I'm good for a minute 'til the demons come 'round
And I feel empty and sad, yeah
Drink until I'm poison, only then I can escape my mind

I know you say that you don't want it, want it
You take a couple pills to stop him coming for ya
And he turns up without a warning, warning
I heard he's looking for you

You and I ain't friends
So stop shadowing me
I'm getting out, I'm getting free
There's no escaping it, I'm my worst enemy
Pack your bags and leave
You have caused me too much grief
I'm getting out, I'm getting free
There's no escaping it, I'm my worst enemy

I go to bed and then lie awake up screaming
Why ain't I sleeping oh why ain't I dreaming?
Have you come to me to tell me a secret?
You will not tell me 'cause you know I'll leak it

You and I ain't friends
So stop shadowing me
I'm getting out, I'm getting free
There's no escaping it, I'm my worst enemy
Pack your bags and leave
You have caused me too much grief
I'm getting out, I'm getting free
There's no escaping it, I'm my worst enemy

Yonaka - Own Worst Enemy

/ Him that I love, I wish to be free -- even from me. /

Another punch in the head. Thank you for this incredible torrent of energy, for this precious feeling when it seems that nothing is impossible and everything is in our hands.

Go

Time, is passing us by
Moves at the blink of an eye
I try

I, I want to be great
But now as the storm has begun
I try

Keep me waiting, still I'm finding out
Don't care from it would be
Have me believe he been free

So go now go, go darling go
Go darling go
Can't chose the words in my mouth
So leave me alone now
Go now go, go darling go
Go darling go
Can't chose the words in my mouth
So leave me alone now

Can't control my mind no more
Can't decide for me, do I need to remind you that
You can't control my life no more
Can't chose the words in my mouth
So leave me alone now

Glass Caves - Go 

/ Free yourself from the burden of feeling the need to hold on to anything. Let go… you are a part of everything. /

I'm absolutely crazy about this song. This captivating tune, this killer energy, bare emotions and absolute unique and awesome style of guitar playing... Oh, I want to stay alone with you as soon as possible. So everybody, please, just go now. 

Buzzcut Season

I remember when your head caught flame

It kissed your scalp and caressed your brain

(I remember when your head caught flame)

Well, you laughed, baby, it's OK

It's buzzcut season anyway

(Well, you laughed, baby, it's OK)

We ride the bus with the knees pulled in

People should see how we're living

(We ride the bus with the knees pulled in)

Shut my eyes to the song that plays

Sometimes this has a hot, sweet taste

(Shut my eyes to the song that plays)

The men up on the news

They try to tell us all that we will lose

But it's so easy in this blue

Where everything is good

Cola with the burnt-out taste

I'm the one you tell your fears to

There'll never be enough of us

Explosions on TV

And all the girls with heads inside a dream

So now we live beside the pool

Where everything is good

And I'll never go home again

(Place the call, feel it start)

Favorite friend

(And nothing's wrong but nothing's true)

I live in a hologram with you

We're all the things that we do for fun

(And I'll breathe, and it goes)

Play along

(Make believe, it's hyper real)

But I live in a hologram with you

Lorde - Buzzcut Season

/ I tried to discover, in the rumor of forests and waves, words that other men could not hear, and I pricked up my ears to listen to the revelation of their harmony. /

Помню времена, когда я совершенно не понимала этой легкой, прозрачной и невыразительной музыки. Простой и незамысловатой, как ситцевое платье. Но может быть в последнее время я начала более чутко прислушиваться, а может просто порой мне выпадает счастье повстречать по-настоящему хорошую песню.

И я невероятно сильно люблю этот  трек... Он словно вобрал в себя самые легкие, невесомые, неуловимые воспоминания, такие радостно-счастливые, теплые, летние, такие вечные. Словно оранжевые фонарики в ночи, шум прибоя на рассвете, аромат цветущего луга, карусели, которые кружат тебя в вихре и дарят мгновения невероятного, всеобъемлющего и чистого счастья. Или тихие уютные вечера дома, проведенные за созерцанием того, как цвета постоянно сгущаются, в то время как твои чувства обостряются, а мысли достигают глубин сознания, и ты словно видишь этот мир таким, каким никто не может его увидеть...

И не важно, какая музыка играет в твоих наушниках, главное, какими чувствами она отзывается в твоем сердце.

Golden Skans

Light touch my hands, in a dream of Golden Skans, from now on

You can forget our future plans

Night touch my hands with the turning Golden Skans

From the night to the light, all plans are golden in your hands

Set sail from sense, bring all her young

Set sail from where we once begun

While we wait, while we wait

A hall of records, or numbers, or spaces still undone

Ruins, or relics, disciples, and the young

A hall of records, or numbers, or spaces still undone

Ruins, or relics, disciples, and the young

Light touch my hands, in a dream of Golden Skans, from now on

You can forget our future plans

Night touch my hands with the turning Golden Skans

From the night to the light, all plans are golden in your hands

Klaxons - Golden Skans

/ Sanity and happiness are an impossible combination. /

I'm absolutely not-so-indie-girl, who like to fly over the flower fields and wallow in the skies created by gentle indie melodies, but this song - gosh... You know, if the purfect union of pure joy, happines and iternal bliss exists, it sounds like this.