Still

I'll wrap up my bones

And leave them

Out of this home

Out on the road

Two feet standing on a principle

Two hands longing for each others warmth

Cold smoke seeping out of colder throats

Darkness falling, leaves nowhere to go

It's spiraling down

Biting words like a wolf howling

Hate is spitting out each others mouths

But we're still sleeping like we're lovers

Still with feet touching

Still with eyes meeting

Still our hands match

Still with hearts beating

Two feet standing on a principle

Two hands longing for each others warmth

Cold smoke seeping out of colder throats

Darkness falling, leaves nowhere to go

Daughter - Still

/ The day will come when I will look in the sky the same way asking how are you there, without me... /

Whatever I say, my words will not be able to describe a small fraction of how beautiful this song is... This magic, ephemerality and depth of post-rock, this elusive and pure sadness, this genuine beauty. The voice of this girl is a pure fragile vessel filled with unique beauty and unbearable sadness. And I will keep it carefully, I promise.

The Dazzler

 The night is young at the Dazzler
I spiked my own drink, took myself to bed
Alone I pondered the cheap frills of hotels
The miniatures, the endless throwaway towels
One for my hair, one for my foot
Another for my other foot
My face, my neck, my spilled beverages

Drunk in my hotel room, I look perfect
I look like I'm 24 before I caught your coldness
God, I'm gorgeous
I keep begging for late checkouts
Let me stay here, let me live here
In room 232 till I expire, I can shower for hours
Leave the lights on, I'm not paying those bills

The neighbours are quiet, no one is back yet
I think about the falsity of hotel sex
Expensive bedsheets and the orange glowing filaments
The way you used to say you loved me
In the heat of it, holiday feeling
When it wasn't over too quick
Yeah, I'll throw the TV out the window
And I'll paint the whole room gold
I'll make potions with the minibar here
Yeah, I feel unbalanced, put my feet on the walls
Try and reach you all night, I'm not paying for calls

Oh, this is heaven
Alone
Yeah, this is living
Alone

 Ex:Re - The Dazzler

"This song hit me hard in many ways, I relate to it, it brings me back to the nights in the city where I would wander around and see all the happy couples walking around, laughing, kissing, cuddling, having dinner, living. The loneliness I felt was suffocating, I would call up guys for a cheap thrill, some sex in a decent hotel with some drinks just to feel something other than the emptiness inside me, growing. I would feel sick after like I was degrading myself for sinking this low just to escape my problems. 

I felt like nobody would love me in those times, I was kind of hoping that one day a guy wouldn’t just get up and leave once the sex ended. I was hoping they would stay and hold me and let me cry out all this sadness enveloping me, engulfing my being deep inside. There were many nights in that city, in those hotel rooms, of just loneliness, pleasure, relief, hopelessness and confusion, I could see the imprints of myself in the walls. 

My life is better now, I’m lucky for what I have and the guy I have in my life. I’ll never forget though those feelings and how close I was to ending it all in one of those rooms, each night was like a dance with death. Those memories feel like a blur, they’re strangely nostalgic. This song brings it all right out of me. I’m grateful for escaping that cycle, I know some that never escape."

For me loneliness and melancholy have never been sad, only romantic and so desired... But this music is so painful yet so beautiful I can even put in the words. This is too personal, too outspoken, too beautiful, too fragile yet too strong. This not just a song, this is a story of lonely soul in absolutely lonely world, told in a such a piercing way, that I feel myself as if I were you... And these feeling are so beyond all bearing... But this is heaven, alone. Yes, this is living, alone.

Familiar

Can you walk on the water if I, you and I?

Because your blood's running cold outside the familiar true to life

Can you walk on the water if I, you and I?

Or keep your eyes on the road and live in the familiar, without you and I

It glows with gates of gold, true to life

We took a walk to the summit at night, you and I

To burn a hole in the old grip of the familiar, you and I

And the dark was opening wide, do or die

Under a mask of vermillion ruling eyes

And our love is a ghost that the others can't see

It's a danger

Every shade of us you fade down to keep

Them in the dark on who we are

(Oh, what you do to me)

Gonna be the death of me

It's a danger

'Cause our love is a ghost that the others can't see

Agnes Obel - Familiar

This song is golden, like autumn leaves in the light, warm, like a mug of hot tea and a warm blanket on a rainy day, sad, like a whisper of the cold days that coming...

Quiet

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied 

Who told me time would ease me of my pain! 

I miss him in the weeping of the rain; 

I want him at the shrinking of the tide; 

The old snows melt from every mountain-side, 

And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane; 

But last year’s bitter loving must remain 

Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide. 

There are a hundred places where I fear 

To go,—so with his memory they brim. 

And entering with relief some quiet place 

Where never fell his foot or shone his face 

I say, “There is no memory of him here!” 

And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

This Will Destroy You - Quiet

A quiet farewell to everything that can't be last forever... Life, followed by death. The warmth of the hands, replaced by the coldness of loneliness. The sound of music fading into silence. The sadness that fills the void left after all of this. And the beauty left to live forever.

Feeling Alright

 

Under the branches of feeling alright

I feel asleep just to dream about
I know too many reasons to fight
So glad that I have taken my time

My mind is made of simple thoughts
I'm going up to start this day
Soon you see me now

Under the falling sky feeling alright
Careless, not hopeless, you can't bring me down
But I know too many reasons to fight
So glad that I have you on my side, I've taken my time

Only this life here is happening
I can see these two things, I'm not worried
First rule of thumb you gave: promise not to fade away
So where do you go to sleep now?

My mind is made of simple thoughts
I'm going up to start this day
Soon you see me now 

Warpaint - Feeling Alright

They put a spell on me that will lasts forever. This is like a world created of everything that I ever loved and cherished, swallowed in soft fragile gauze, so weightless, so mysterious, so melancholic and so endlessly beautiful.

Bermuda Locket

I got to tell you something 

I wanna view your dreams 

I wanna pull out your crazy and pour it over me. 

I might take you somewhere far across the seas 

I need your faith, I need your everything. 

As you enter into my curse 

Our dreams reverse and the demons burst... 

So I wait, anticipate to meet you tonight, 

Come this way and I will bring your dreams to life. 

I wanna move you somewhere close to ecstasy 

I might tell you things some which you won't believe 

I wanna view the signals that control your brain 

I need a taste I need your everything. 

As you enter into my curse 

Our dreams reverse and the demons burst... 

So I wait, anticipate to meet you tonight 

Just come this way and I will bring your dreams to life. 

From the first time I saw you till now 

I have counted the years that have gone by 

We'll release those demons tonight, tonight. 

So I wait, anticipate to meet you tonight

Just come this way and I will bring your dreams to life. 

So I save this occasion to meet you tonight 

Just come this way and I will bring your dreams to life.

Crosses - Bermuda Locket

/ He is darkness. And I'm in love with him. /

Oh, what are you doing to me...?

This music is my shrine, my misty sacred place, the reflection of my twilight dreams... But I really have never thought that I would find music that could bewitch me so badly, forcing me to simply lose my head, but to find my heart again... With this music the world becomes so different, the greatest love appears in here, love, which lives only in the most romantic books, mystery, that pierces the pages of the most incredible books, something dark, otherworldly, sweet, bewitching, incomprehensible and eternal...

Stripped

Come with me

Into the trees

We'll lay on the grass

And let the hours pass

Take my hand

Come back to the land

Let's get away

Just for one day

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Metropolis

Has nothing on this

You're breathing in fumes

I taste when we kiss

Take my hand

Come back to the land

Where everything's ours

For a few hours

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you

Make decisions

Without your television

Let me hear you speaking

Just for me

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you speaking

Just for me

Let me see you

Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you crying

Just for me

Depeche Mode - Stripped

The craving for darkness and unknown depths was here ith me as far as I know myself. As well as the love of measured drift on the enveloping and lulling waves of nostalgia, surrounded by dark and alluring soundscapes. One of my favorite songs, then and now. Always.