Can't Look Away

I knew that we'd be more than friends

When I saw you shining

Somewhere in my heart I knew

Somewhere in my heart

Holding on to my belief

That you were another heart thief

Knew you'd pull my world apart

I knew it from the start

We just keep on rising

Faster than the lightning

Looking down on all below

Trying to keep control

Now the grip is tightening

Gonna keep on fighting

Somewhere in my heart I know

Somewhere in my heart

All the love you gave me

You know it made me strong

Feeling alive, now back to life

I know where I belong

I'll never let them break me

I'll never do no wrong

We're on fire, we're on fire

And we're burning up

I keep looking at you and it feels like

I've been staring at the sun, yeah you hurt my eyes

Can't look away, can't look away

I need to see it, feel it, breathe it

Don't let the light go, light go

I need to see it, feel it, breathe it

Don't let the light go, light go

I keep looking at you and it feels like

I've been staring at the sun, yeah you hurt my eyes

I keep looking at you and it feels like

I've been staring at the sun, yeah you hurt my eyes

Can't look away, can't look away

Seafret - Can't Look Away

  
...And the more I listen to this song, the deeper I fall in love, and with each new playthrough the hope for me ever getting out of this relationship seems dimmer and dimmer…
I can’t even imagine the power of one’s affection towards the other person, the adoration so strong that it has went through every word, piercing every breath the singer had taken before the lyrics have left his soul and resonated with us, enchanted listeners. And this feeling, this immense love shines on me so brightly, that it pierces my heart and my soul, so painfully yet so delightfully.
I am grateful, as in this song I’ve found all that I crave for so much, and try to find in myself every time. Although the search is almost always in vain, because these things are long gone. Erased like drawings on the sand under the harsh strikes of the endless tides.

P.S. I am so thankful to you for such a beauty I can barely handle...
 

Still Laughing

Come take a look

Because all this could mean that I
Don't really care who ends up getting hurt
Please take a look
If it's judgement versus instinct
How do I feel
When my feelings don't even work

Answer me this
Yes all I have is questions
You can't slip away and hide behind a false truth
Time takes too long
Just seems like I'm still standing here now
And I can't even feel the rain that hits my shores

Know that I'll be there
Cause I can see it in your eyes
Time stood still for me
When you call

I'm still waiting
I still breathe
That's a sign that I'm still me
I'm still breathing
I can see
So I must be alive for real
When will I get there?
I should be here by now
Got it all worked out
Did I see you laughing?
Yet funny, it's not me
In time all I want is it away
Got too long and now it's gone, it's gone

I'm still waiting
I still breathe
That's a sign that I'm still me
I'm still breathing
I can see
So I must be alive for real
So I must be alive for real
Yeah so I must be alive for real
So I must be alive for real

Lostprophets - Still Laughing

/ ...no, the echo of this laugh dissolved in time so long ago... /

Probably,  I never loved anyone the way I loved you that summer. There's no sense in trying to describe how it was like back then, because I wrote dozens of pages, trying to share this happiness and get myself free from this pain. And these memories are still so alive and bright, and still so sacred to me...

But I return to this world so rarely, because so many happy memories have found such an inglorious and tragic end. It's so unfair, it's so wrong. And I'm so sorry...

You were so beautiful inside, otherwise you wouldn't have written all of this. Otherwise, I wouldn't fell in love with you.
You were just sick and you were not given any chance to be cured. They buried you. They buried you alive. And with you they buried a part of me, which I've cherished so dearly.

I miss you and all of you guys so badly. You will always remain in my soul, as something beautiful, eternal and beloved.

Catch It

I didn't even bother myself searching for some photo, 'cause I hardly could find something more beautiful

Reeling in the line
Fully saccharine
All these stagnant words which I confide
Perish in the night
Anyway so
Here we go again
Always faintly preying
Did I note a tremble on your arm
Thereupon alarmed
Just give in

Time moves forward quickly
Moves in twenty-four
Hour segments racing for the soul
To grab chokehold
Of the minute hands
Left without a trace
Just a fleeting face
Flicker as a figment once before my eyes
Perished in the night

You want it, you want it, you want it again
Why don't you come and ask me, I adore you my friend
I said you need it, you need it, you need it again
Trust me, these arbitrary thrills will never fail to transcend

Come make me real
You reel in then you catch it
Catch it, catch it, catch it, catch it, catch it
Come make me real
You reel in then you catch it
Catch it, catch it, catch it, catch it

I said you want it, you want it, you want it again
Why don't you come and touch it, I adore you, my friend
I said you need it, you need it, you need it again
Trust me, these arbitrary thrills, they never fail to transcend
Make me real
You reel in then you catch it
Catch it
Catch it

Iceage - Catch It 

Why do I get the feeling that this song have invited me to a slow dance and I just couldn't resist this invitation?

And now in my mind I'm slowly swaying under this leisurely and ubleliavable tempting song,

gradually dissolving in this intoxicating haze...

You'll Be Fine

I see it in those eyes
You're so damn hypnotized
You wanted to pretend the voice you hear is not in your head
You wanted to escape, but you're not that innocent
Just stay for the show, don't turn around
Cause mama say don't go

I'm looking for you out there
I'm looking for truth inside your stare
I'm looking for you outside
Cause I mean it, no, I mean it, you'll be fine!
I'm looking for you this way
But you don't hear a word I say
Looking for you this time
Cause I mean it, yeah, I mean it, you'll be fine!

(You'll be fine)

Well, I can see the way she sleeps
Tonight, I find a better peace of mind
In her eyes, oh her eyes, oh her eyes, yeah
In her eyes, lord, her eyes, oh her eyes, yeah!

Have you ever felt so alone
You want to slip into the void
And never be seen again?
One day, that day is today

I see it in those eyes
You are so damn hypnotized
You wanted to pretend the voice you hear is not in your head

I'm looking for you out there
I'm looking for truth inside your stare
I'm looking for you outside
Cause I mean it, yeah, I mean it, you'll be fine!
I'm looking for you this way
But you don't hear a word I say
I'm looking for you this time
Cause I mean it, yeah, I mean it, you'll be fine!

Palaye Royale - You'll Be Fine

Hello, cutie, I'm so glad to see you back, becoming darker, heavier, stranger, more dramatic and so inviting... I'm so in love with your dark tune and these vibes of insanity you radiate. And of course, with your so damn hypnotized voice...
I hope that I will follow you into this beautiful nightmare so soon... And yes, I'm much more than just fine right now (well, maybe just a little bit dizzy), so I thank you.

A Little Death

Vacancy was lit, the guests were checking in

The concierge was cold,

The water pipes had mold all over them

The room was fit for two,

The bed was left in ruins

The neighbor was knocking, yeah

But no one would let him in

Dancing through the night

A vodka and a sprite

A glimpse of the silhouettes

A night that they never forget

She sought death on a queen-sized bed

And he had said, "Darling, your looks can kill,

So now you’re dead."

Touch me, yeah

I want you to touch me there

Make me feel like I am breathing

Feel like I am human

Touch me, yeah

I want you to touch me there

Make me feel like I am breathing

Feel like I am human, again

The Neighbourhood - A Little Death

Just a little piece of Heaven, again.
Reality is nothing / imagination is everything.
  

Somewhere I Belong

 

When this began,
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me

(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find that I'm not the only person with these things in mind

(inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I got left to feel

(nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel,
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long (erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face 

(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find that it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind 

(so what am I?)
What do I have but negativity?
'Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me

(nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel,
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long (erase all the pain 'till it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel,
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away, and find myself today

 

 Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong

 

 You were the first and the biggest love of my life. 

And you always will be. 

 

 

Smoke and Mirrors

The snake eyes on the corner
Hold me down or cut me loose
...

Now I'm crawling in the way you move

But you're hiding in a blinding ...
You don't say how you're feeling, don't say how you're feeling
The way the fire in your heart is gone
You don't say how you're feeling, don't say how you're feeling

'Cause all I see is Smoke & Mirrors
While it cuts down to the bone
You said you'd never seen clearer
So say you're ...

You're safe for a sinner
Finally now I've hit the wall
The more you smoke in the mirrors

But you've set it off and now you're standing tall

But you're hiding in a blinding...

You don't say how you're feeling, don't say how you're feeling

The way the fire in your heart is gone

You don't say how you're feeling, don't say how you're feeling

'Cause all I see is Smoke & Mirrors

While it cuts down to the bone

You said you'd never seen clearer

So say you're...

Your eyes were like a movie

Well who are ya

Who are ya to me

And dressed fit for a summer

Like no other

Say who are ya, who are ya

Well who are ya, who are ya

Luna Bay - Smoke and Mirrors

I'm so in love in the dreamy tune and heartfelt guitar passages of this song, and the silent whisper of the saddness echoing in my heart... To listen to it is like swaying in the azure waves, driven by a gentle wind, far from the hustle and bustle of this life, just watching the clouds slowly sail in the sky and only the cries of seagulls break this beautiful idyll...