Je T’aime Mélancolie

Quand tout est gris / When all is grey
La peine est mon amie / The sorrow is my friend
J'ai l'âme humide aussi / A long acid suicide
Tout mon être chavire / Love you, melancholy
Oh viens je t'en prie / A feeling that
C'est ton amie aussi / Leads to infinity
C'est l'élixir de mes délires / Blending the worst of my desire
Je t'aime mélancolie / Love you melancholy
 

California

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Sans Logique

It was so unusual to share part of my childhood with this dark enchantress... Probably there is not a other lady in the world who would be so gentle and mysterious, but at the same time so sensual and outspoken. She is true Icon of genuine and obscure art. And it's still a delight to return to those times when she impressed me with her talent always balancing on the sharp edge.

Marooned

 

“This is what they mean by 'ghost town', she thought. It truly feels like a place frozen in time...”

 

I love this video so much. So beautiful, so fragile and so tragic...

“Show me a fantasy novel about Chernobyl - there isn't one! Because reality is more fantastic.” 

Colony Collapse

Oh dear, what a sorry state we're in
We brought the battle
We saw the signs
Now we've found ourselves two steps behind

Give us the rope and we'll tie our own noose
We truly believed all we touched turned to gold
We were warned but we wouldn't be told

I'm counting days like they're running out
There's ghosts in the water, so prey for drought

This time there's no where to hide
We're facing the firing squad side by side

They said that the ocean's on fire
Say it isn't true
The truth never hurt so much
Can we start anew?

1986
This is full relapse
Our latest apocalypse
This is colony collapse

Architects - Colony Collapse

 This music can express something that cannot be put into words...

 
26.04.1986

Mountain At My Gates

I see a mountain at my gates

I see it more and more each day

What I give, it takes away

Whether I go or when I stay

I see a mountain in my way

It's looming larger by the day

I see a darkness in my fate

I'll drive my car without the brakes

I see a mountain at my gates

I see it more and more each day

And my desire wears a dark dress

But each day, I see you less

Oh, gimme some time

Show me the foothold from which I can climb

Yeah, when I feel low

You show me a signpost for where I should go

Through lanes and stone rows

Black granite, wind blows

Fire lake and far flame

Go now but come again

Dark clouds gather 'round

Will I run or stand my ground?

Foals - Mountain At My Gates

They are strange. They are unique. They are talanted. They are math. The are edgy. They are deep, soulful and mysterious. And they are unbeliavable melancholy.
And every time I listen to them, I feel their music beating with my heart and running throught my veins. It captivates my soul and I can't get it out from my head for so long time. And I think I almost love them...

London Thunder

I'm on the red-eye flight to nowhere good

How about you?

I've been in the air for hours, meteor showers by the pool

So one last drink for summer always leaving never you

Come back to London thunder, the sound of sorrow in my room

There is no way to realign, upholster skin I take back every line

Lost my mind in San Francisco, the worn out disco when tempers cooled

There is no water, there is no sound

Will you come around? Will you come around?

There is no space, there is no time

Where'd you draw the line?

And now the tables turn, it's over

And with my fingers burned I start a new

And now I've come back down, I'm older

I look for something else to hold on to

I'm on the red-eye flight to nowhere good

How about you?

Foals - London Thunder

“When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”

In this rainy and cold evening there is no better place to go than the land where melancholy and memories live. And I want to listen to this beautiful song when I'll be there.

Late Night

Oh I hope that you somebody,
Someone I could count
To pull me to my feet again
When I was in doubt

Did you throw your heart away?
Oh, I know just what I say
Did your phone cut in the way?
Being still downtown I say
And I know you ran away
Oh, I know, but I'm feeling okay
And I found love and fear won't go
And I found love and feeling won't go
See you walk away, feeling okay now
Happy now, happy now?
  

Stay with me, stay with me, stay with me, stay with me

Foals - Late Night

I still can't find myself in indie music and do not really seek for it, but I think I finally find place where I can feel like home...

Survival

Will I disappear? 

Will I disappear with a vision of tomorrow? 

Will I disappear until I can't feel the light? 

Will I disappear with the memory of the sorrow? 

Ten years of hope have passed, you felt alone 

And pictured life a little differently 

And people say that life has just begun 

You wait impatiently, a lotus in the sun

 You are the infamy, the luminescent light

 And people say that life has just begun

 When you're not a part of me I feel dead inside 

 And I get the feeling I've been here before 

On the abandoned road

Tesseract - Survival

I don't want to see my reflection in this song, nonetheless I can't help but see this to some extent. So I just let this beautiful sadness fill the void that consumes me from time to time, rising like a tide over me.

 

Hollow Crown

 

There, there must be
An easier way
To release these feelings

So, so far from home
I need your voice
To hold my head together
To lift my lonely state of mind

You, you can but wait
For me to return
For me to show you how I felt

These wounds have bled
And pages fly by
I need to feel you right by my side

Oh there must be
An easier way
To release these feelings

As the sea breeze hits my lungs
It takes me back to where I belong
To where I belong

Architects - Hollow Crown

When just one song can be everything to you.
Oh, and how I wish there could be an easier way too...

Gone With The Wind

The weight of the world is resting on thin ice

When the surface breaks will I find paradise?

As I freeze to death, left to reflect

What a waste of time I was, in retrospect

Of all the patterns that I could create

I built a labyrinth with no escape

To keep my ‘self' under lock and key

I am my own worst enemy

I'd take a leap of faith, but I'd lose my nerve

In the end, I'll get the hell that I deserve

If I could silence all the doubt in me

Accept that what is meant to be

I'm always gone with the wind

Crawling in and out of my mind

God knows, I lost all my faith

A sickness with no remedy, except the ones inside of me

You ever wonder how deep you could sink into nothing at all?

Disintegrate. Annihilate me

I remember when you said to me

“My friend, hope is a prison.”

Hope is a prison

Architects - Gone With The Wind

2 years today. Please, return me back to these days.

This world is so empty without you... I'm so sorry that I return to this sacred place so rarely, because it's all too painful... Forgive me for holding you in such depth of my heart where no lights can reach you. Every time I listen to this song, my heart bursts with pain and eyes fill with tears. Every fucking time.

Thank you for this unbelievably beautiful world you've created. Thank you for changing my life. I love you and I always will. And I will miss you forever.

Miami

 
I promised you on an ocean of
Mother of pearl, gold, and indigo
Cut through the waves, I watched you swim away
I'll never love you more than today

Would you be there
Be there
Be there for me

Now black light sets on my short day
Oh, you betrayed me, you gave it away
You don't mind picking up salt to rub into my wounds

Would you be there
Be there
Be there for me

Would you betray me
Or save me

Save me from you

Foals - Miami

I don't quite fell Miami wibes in this song, but I feel something so much larger than that. I like how this song doesn't sound like almost anything I've ever heard... It's so pretty odd in the best possible way. After all, it's just of the best songs in the world. And this is an ideal music for finding happiness in solitude and enjoying freedom, serenity and our dreams.
And still, yes, the seaside would be the perfect place to dissolve in these thoughts and this music... But wait, sea shores is the ideal place for anything, doesn't it...?
What a beauty is just to walk along the endless shore, watching the waves return over and over again to kiss the shoreline in one of the most beautiful manifestation of infinity, to listen how the sound of the sea echoes in your soul, while the rays of the sun caress your body and wind waves your hair... And your sight embrace this unbeliveable beauty, while your spirit constantly rushes far away, beyond the horizon line, and returns, bringing new dreams to the safest place of your heart...

“Because there's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it's sent away.”

Lucky You

 

Hey, I see the trees are green again
Maybe this time around you'll set the trend
Today's the day you make your mark I'm sure
But if you don't, if you don't, then try the next door

Brush the dust off it's dawn again my friend
Next time you'll get it
Next time you'll make amends
Tomorrow's children will need a light to shine the way
Without you, without you, who will tell them to stay?

Cause you falling like a star
Sinking like a stone
Watching as the world you're in now
Slowly takes it's toll

I'm so sorry

But you try

You

Lucky you

Lostprophets - Lucky You 

 

Here's one of my all-time favourite oldies which always brings me to the happiest days of my life... To endless summer, pure happiness and undying youth. 

Let's have a great weekend and enjoy every moment of freedom! Look at the sky, feel the warmth of the sun, close your eyes and try to catch still cool whiff of wind on your face... Embrace these feelings and lock them inside as deep as you can. Don't dare to be sad, life is so beautiful and precious thing, and world around you full of enchantment. And I will keep you in mind...

Live In The Moment

 

My home
Is a girl with eyes like wishing wells
I'm not alone
But I'm still lone, lonely
When I was young
Always go below the midnight sun
Those days are done
But I'm still glowing

Let's live in the moment
Come back Sunday morning
A lie, oh well
When you're gone
Goodbye, so long, farewell

Oh, I can't believe it
Nothing's gonna comfort me now

Oh my God, I can’t believe my eyes
Wake up everybody you know
Come and watch the garden grow
I’ll see you when you get there

Portugal. The Man - Live In The Moment 

I just saw this magic picture with wonderful butterflies and thought about legend that this beautiful creatures live only one day... And I guess that mostly it isn't true, but it just made me muse about transience of being... But I don't want to be sad now and think about things I can't change, so I will listen to this incredibly beautiful song.
So let's live in the moment, because most part of the time it's all that we have.

The Dreamclub Murders

And I feel, tonight, that I let you die
But you could have lived forever, it took smiles to keep you alive
But heroes die, and so did mine
But you go, and I stay, will it keep you at peace now

But I remember you, you'll go, you'll find a way back home
But I remember you, when you stand there
You stand with your eyes closed

So sleep child no one can touch you now
No one can hurt you now. Not here. Anymore

Dead Poetic - The Dreamclub Murders

And this day came... The day when the southern wind finally brought warmth and inspiration to life, filled my heart with an elusive sense of nostalgia and opened a book of my memories on a page entitled "Dead Poetic"...
Oh, words can't describe how much I love them. And for so many years they were my favorite soundscape for times  of memories and  ineffable magic that come only in the early spring or  late autumn .
How many lonely wanders were made to this beautiful music, how many roads were passed, how many times I watched how the clouds swim in the sky and the glare of the sun rays play among the branches of trees, as it insensibly slopes towards the sunset, changing everything around to something unbeliavable magnificent, filling this world with enchantment..
And in these moments I didn't need anything else, because I feel the purest and boundless happiness I could only dream about. And I don't know why, but this music, like no other, is so permeated with this incredible feeling of nostalgia and sad beauty... After all, it is as eternal and beautiful as my happiest memories...