Staying Up

No food to eat
All the money's been wasted from last week
I can't even leave
So I sit in the basement, making up rad beats
Hot cup of tea
It's four o'clock in the middle of the night and I can't sleep
It's all on the peak
So bad I can taste it while it eats me

Some part of me
Feels a little bit naked and empty
I'm stuck underneath
A few dirty old blankets to comfort me

And there's a light
And I can see why I'm still alive
Mommy won't lie
'Cause if she did, I would've died
All the time I sit and try
You think I'd be tired
Every night, I'm sick and why?
Ohh, I'm staying up this time

How can I sleep if I don't have dreams?
I just have nightmares
How can it be?
I still believe something is out there

The Neighbourhood - Staying Up

/ There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds. /

When you know that things always could be worse. But sometimes you need to ruin your life just to feel something. But so far all I feel is pain.

And how I wish to be free from everything and everyone...